Destiny

why should i thank god
if i win as i might?
why should i curse him
if i lose the fight?
cause i'm a man
and i choose my own destination.
i won't blame another
even if i face my own damnation.

any color you may follow...all may come just as hollow...

red, green, blue, yellow,
any color u may follow.
leading to the small door
through which alice went before.
and shows you around the kingdom of your mind
where all the people are peaceful and kind.
but when u retrace your steps back one at a time,
the door once open is locked from behind.
and so you cry, and you cry out loud
cause light is so vague without the darkness
that is underneath the shroud!

Death of a Butterfly

It was like something she said a long time back.
"Nothing really ever ends. Death is relative. Your soul is freed from your living body and reaches out for unbounded limits, limits that your mind creates. Your horizon is always streched to that limit, mortal limits as you may say. And with the death of your living human form begins a journey in the never-ending universe. But this time the mortal chains that bind the body is there no more."

As I saw the butterfly slowly dying, these thoughts flashed upon my mind.
"With the death of a butterfly,
colours slowly fading by,
With the rain and the sunshine,
the birth of a rainbow in the sky."

Our mind is always so confused, always lost in this deep dark sea of endless thoughts. Life for this mortal living body is so short, physically handicapped and bound by time. With death the sense of time is lost. It cannot play the master of puppets anymore. Time as a whole looses sense and so does our physical shortcomings. We can do what we always desired to do and make the blue sky colourful once again.

Its Gonna Rain Today

Its gonna rain today,
like all your world will end,
like the end of days.

Its gonna rain today,
making your sorrows re-live,
as you leave the day.

Its gonna rain today,
making you feel like in hell
and banging the bell.

And as you leave this world
what will you feel?
Will you remorse and regret?
or dance in the rain?

And as you live this world
what will you feel?
Will you lie, cheat and steal?
or re-live the pain?

So as you leave this world
what will you feel?
Will you be beggin for mercy?
or wanna reign in hell?

Cause you sure know that...
Its gonna rain today,
like all your world will end,
like the end of days.

My Dark Past

Once again its that time of the year,
when I find myself standing nowhere.
If I face the light I can see the future bright and clear,
but in the my own shadow my gloomy past stands o' so near.

What is it that the most I fear?
which brings to my eye a drop of tear.
What will the future behold?
is it destruction just as the sages have told.
Or will it bring a smile to our face?
as the tears will loose their trace.

Once again its that time of the year,
when I find myself standing nowhere.
If I face the light I will burn down to ashes and dust.
But it is my dark past that I do not trust.

Darkness Shines

Child help me to know what I'm doing.
Sometimes life gets so frustrating.
And if I'm blinded by the light,
dont shelter me to hide.
Just let me to place
where the sun don't shine.

Child help me undo my misgivings.
Sometimes the world's full of misbelievings.
And if I'm misguided by my mind,
dont leave me here to die.
Just let me to place
where the darkness shines.

Only the lord knows,
Only the lord knows what's true.
Only the lord knows,
Only the lord knows what's true.

Child help me drown myself in the deepest waters,
where the darkness is forever.
And when a ray comes along
from the big bright red sun,
let me watch it till its darker
and darkness shines...

The "SMART" People

The Whole World Today is full of so many "Smart" People,
a tribute to them from a guy who's "not so Smart".


Smart people, don't fool me
like you fool the poor with a piece of coin.
Smart people, don't slave me
like you slave the dog with a piece of bone.
Smart people, don't judge me
like you judge a toddler trying to walk.
Smart people, don't love me
like you love the TV and the Reality Stars.

i am not your element of hate
Nor i am not your element of faith.
i am not your element of subordinacy
Nor i am your element of heroism.
so just let me be.

Smart people, don't prophesize me
let me follow my own lord.
Smart people, don't control me
let me follow my own heart.
Smart people, don't isolate me
let me find oneness in nature.
Smart people, dont tie me down
let me be free.

i am not the seed you sow
Nor i am not the kind you follow.
i am not the pill you take
Nor i am the smile you fake.
so just let me be.

Smart people, follow your own smart way
i am not the cup in your tray.
Smart people, you might be the king of the town
but i am not the one you own.

Smart people, look in the mirror in front of you.
your sons and daughters might not be as smart as you!!!

Lucky# 53

sitting idle with a pack of cards in my hands
counting them all from 1 to 52
all of a sudden my eyes fell upon #53
people know it by the name of mr joker

then suddenly i felt my soul overtaken
and my mind speaking the words of someone else

"you may be the queen of hearts
and your friends may be the other 3
you may even find your own king of spades
may also find the jack who lays the red carpet for you
you may find god in the aces of different religions
and people may know you just by the look of your face

but no one ever knows the #53
switching the places, the faces and the voices of all the 52 of them
playing the king, the queen or the jack
or any other fuckin number in the pack

you may be broken or even may be stolen
you may switch hands, but you will never loose your colour
while i come in the picture, in the hands of the gamblers
only as a switch-bitch make-shift torniquet

they may be worthless, but all of them have a colour
and they all are counted, adding upto 52
but when they are broken or lost in the change of seasons
it is time for me, mr joker #53
and as i come in to play their part in the game of cards
the one, people knew as the joker, has the last laugh at last"

i tried to comeback to my former self
tried to make me believe that this is all a dream
then i re-found myself holding a mirror
all this time thought it to be card #53

For whom there is a world beyond this world...Going Home

this is my time. but it is going to stop.
this is my space. but it is shrinking.
this is my world. but I will have to leave.
this is my life. but it is going to end.

don't treat me like a dog, even though i am. give me my time, my space, my world.
give me back my life, if you can.
you cant take my time as i cannot take ours.it will just flow and flow.
you cant take away my space as none of it is yours.
you cant take away my world as i'm gifting it to god.
you can take my life, but not my soul.it will fly high and high into the open sky.

i want to re-live all of the little time i had on my own once again.
the first time i saw the light...god's grace...the first foot i set on the mother earth...the smell of it...the first time i could feel the energy flow in my veins...but all these not for long...there i can feel a pain, deep in my bones...felt like the first call from home...and it comes and haunts me everyday...my belief of this earth as my home is slowly fading as i am pulled in this dark quicksand...my home...the calls, what were a whisper once, are becoming louder and louder day by day...i can hear them in the dark...see them in the broad daylight...

i close my eyes...the fears disappear...i feel of flying over a thousand seas...no distant shore can be seen...but no...at last i can see the shore...a place, green forever, no pain, no hate, no fight for survival...

for the last time i want to feel the pain which is going to leave me now...
as i am leaving...going home...

time it has stopped.
space is a point.
world is far.
am i dead?

no, i am home.